Living Will

The last eleven days have been the worst in my life up to this point that is. I got a phone call we all dread on Wednesday, the 27th. I was driving home from work (on the highway no less) and my phone rang. It was a call from my ex sister-n-law. I knew it could not be good. Well, after pulling off the road I found out my brother was in a coma. It was one of those calls that you just want them to get to the end of it to know if he is dead or alive. I drove the short distance home and have been in overdrive ever since. My dad and I flew to my brothers side immediately and have spent every day and night at the hospital since.

The reason I am posting this is that I found out how important a living will is. So please if you do not have one, get one tomorrow. I am making life and death decisions for him. Yesterday I was planning his funneral. So please do your loved ones a favor and get a living will. My brother is only 45, so we are never too young to need one!

Red Letter Day

A year ago January I was diagnosed with a heart problem. I never thought of myself as someone who should get heart check ups, but I am and so are you! You have a beautiful heart, let’s keep it that way.

Today is Go Red for American Heart Association! Be sure to get your Go Red Heart Check today. Click with Your Heart and Campbell’s will donate a dollar for every click to the American Heart Association.

Relationships

Having a relationship is not a new thing. We are in and out of "relationships" all of our lives...

1. Parental

• My parents taught me about Jesus (My ultimate first relationship), love, life, the importance of eating my vegetables and so much more. There has never been a time when my parents have not been there for me. I may not have always gotten what I wanted (which is good) but they supported me and loved me.
• I am adopted and my parents always told me that I am special because they picked me. They are truly the most amazing people. I am lucky to have both of them with me. The day(s) I lose my parents will be the saddest day(s) of my life.

2. Family

• My brother Scott is only four years older than I am, but as a kid I looked up to him and followed him around like he was an adult. Now we live in different states and don't see each other enough but I still look up to my big brother even when we don't always see eye to eye. I once thought I could be Mary Poppins because he told me so. Scott also shared Jess, Alex and Christopher with me and I am ever so greatful! They have brought much joy to my life!
• I am very close to my aunts and uncles. They have taught me so much over the years. However, the most important was that God and family are the things that should come first in your life. My Aunt Joyce was a perfect example of that. She was an amazing wife and mother, but even more important she was a witness for Christ.

3. Friendship.

• I am lucky to have many wonderful friends in my life. You know you have a true friend when they are with you through the bad times as well as the good. When they love you for who you are, not what you can do for them. I have many friends that fit into that category. I love them all! I could name them, but they know who they are.

4. Love

• I had my first crush when I was five. I was in Kindergarten and I liked a boy named Randy. We use to play house and I was his wife and he worked and I kept the house clean and cooked for him. Those were the days! NOT! I am so glad I am not doing "just" that now.
• I had my first boyfriend in 8th grade. We grew up together and our families spent a lot of time together. We were very close. I actually thought that one day we would marry. We broke up because I would not french kiss! I had my standards! It turns out he did to, he became a minster!
• I met my first true love when I was in college. We met at the end of my freshmen year and dated until I was close to graduating. He told me he loved me and I gave my heart to him. We had plans to marry and spend our lives together, but somehow that changed as things do. I was heartbroken, but my heart mended or scarred over.
• I am in love again with someone I have known for nine years. Most people would think we are crazy, but for us it is normal. He is my best friend and so much more. I don't know what will happen with us but I am thankful for him and what he has brought to my life. I have grown as a person because of our relationship. 2008 is the year for my "dear" and I, it will be our "make it" or "break it" year. I so want to "make it". Oh my!

5. Maternal

• I don't know what God has in store for me. I am open to adoption or at least trying to be, but I am letting God guide my way. I long to be a mother but I may have to find other ways to nurture. I have learned that saying goodbye to motherhood is like dealing with death and it takes time to grieve.

After 41.7 years of life I learned at least one thing....The relationships I have or don't have help to shape my life, but they do not define who I am as a person. That is what I do. I like who I am. I am not perfect, I am a fixer upper, a work in progress but I like what I see in the mirror inside and out. I thank God everyday for my life and the relationships I have and the woman I have become. I look forward to what life has to offer, even if at times it is not with both eye wide open!

Bought and paid for...

I once owned this blog, but let it go. I have missed her from time to time as well as the friends I made. I wish I still had some of my scribbles, but I lost all of my posts either in haste of being "found out" or a blogger virus attack or both . I guess I best get out my new pack of 64 Crayola Crayons and start coloring again. Come back and visit if you wish, I should have a picture or two to share with you by then. db